i feel the pit of my stomach
is it empty
because i am hungry
or is that anxiety
is it sadness
is it the birth control
i started the day after
we had a fight
and a week before i tell you we should break up
and now maybe it's cramps
is it because i watched for colored girls
and now i don't know how to feel about my problems
because i'm only a white girl
does crying make your stomach hurt
was i not breathing right or am i dehydrated
is it my imagination
is it some minimal form of depression
my grandma was mentally ill
does that mean i am too
and as i brushed my teeth
i wondered what would joan rivers do