re: your five year old self

i wake up at night
and i'm bad to myself
i am bad to myself,
i am bad to myself.

i stalk the floors for hours
i don't even know why
i am bad to myself,
i am bad to myself

actually i do know why
i am bad to myself
i am bad to myself
because i'm not good at anything

or at least that's how it feels
when you're lonely at night
when you're bad to myself
i am bad to myself

i am bad to myself
with bad sleeping habits,
with declining self hygene,
with sad movie choices,

with endless internet stalkings,
with endless lists of shortcomings,
i am bad to myself
and have public freakouts

but
public freakouts are the good part
public freakouts are the fun part
public freakouts are the best part
of being alone
public freakouts are the weirdest
public freakouts are the clearest (epiphanic)
public freakouts are sheer bliss
when dancing alone