me right now, i guess

i remember when big bees were terrifying
and their stingers threatened to get permanently stuck
but this one is a sad fat thing that can't uncling from the curtain
and fly back out the window that i left open

but things change and anything can happen to anyone at any time
sometimes i just picture a random person and think about how i will learn that they just died.
probably on facebook, which is maybe a good reason to never read facebook. never good news, just proof that time is passing.

this summer days are longer and i only pee outside
and i always bike past the last place we were when you made me feel really sad but it actually really helps i think now
it's nice to have a stack of books and stuff and know which way the clouds usually move and what time the current is gonna shift so it's less dangerous to swim
"the best advice if you get stuck in a current, don't fight it, just get out of the water"
says the man with the Rott & Lab
"a rotten lab"