one step after another leads me forward

wishing is nothing more
than your mind holding regrets
did you say the right thing
did you do the right thing
what are the ramifications of your choices

so wishing aint no good
if you want to move forward
moving forward
means never looking back

so why do i live a lie of saying im moving forward
when i honestly feel like ive left something behind
how can i move forward when my kids whom ive
protected, nutured, taught, laughed with, cried with
are soooo far apart
they no longer have the comfort of one another to shield they're hurts
and im the cause of that gap, a phone call is simply not enough
when they've had sooo much more

but i have to keep moving forward else ill be grounded to this static form of life
where movement is merely prostrating and standing praying that things will work out for the best
things will be how i determine them to be because i have no more room for waiting for them to work out on theyre own...